The Power Of Silence
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It was the first time that Loki actually winced away from Thor when he motioned at him, the first time that a punch was met with more then a glare and a shove back. Thor wasn’t even entirely sure how he was going to handle it… And unfortunately he didn’t get much time to think about it before Loki was gone. The larger of the brothers gave a bit of a curse, stomping his foot and looking around the room. His brother had just vanished, using his magics no doubt to slip away while he wasn’t paying complete attention.
Thor growled faintly now, smacking the empty plate off of the table first, testing to see if it made him feel better before he shoved more off as well. He was angry at himself, angry that he hadn’t noticed the changes, that he hadn’t noticed Loki standing farther away from him every day, that he hadn’t seen the smaller mans weary look whenever he moved quickly or lifted his hands.
His playful punching and shoving had gotten strong enough that he was hurting the most important person in his life. With a shout the whole table followed next before anyone even dared to come into the room. His chest was rising and falling rapidly, turning on his heel at the sound of feet. He was praying for it to be Loki, so he could explain. maybe even apologize, but no, the only person to walk in was Fandral.
“You should not be here, Fandral, You know my temper.” He says this shortly, walking over to the man he so often spared and quarreled with, pleased that he did not shrink away or run.
That was only Loki.
His demeanor must have changed at that thought, because Fandral reached out and carefully pat the still growing man on the shoulder, offering a strange half smile. “I know how to fight you Thor. but that’s not what you need right now. Right now I’d suggest a wo—” Thor’s hand lifted to push slightly at the man for the comment, shaking his head. “I’ll not bed a woman in this angered state. Only you would result to that.”
Fandral shrugged off the statement, deciding to take it as a compliment that he’d had so many women that it was normal now for him to constantly mention it. He rather liked it actually. “I imagine your anger lies with Loki then, Thor?”
As Soon as Fandral mentioned his brothers name Thor was paying attention again, stepping right up to him and cocking his head slightly to the side. “How would you know? Have you seen him? Where has he gone? Tell me, Fandral!” He asked these questions in rather rapid succession, getting a bit louder near the end before finally ending with a shout. This made the popular warrior blink, more then a little confused by the situation, but entirely happy to wait to ask about it once it was over. This was not something he wanted to be in the middle of. In fact, he could think of few things he’d like to be between less.
“I saw him running to the stables, though I don’t think in his state he’d go there. But you know your brother better then I…” Fandral gave a half interested shrug, not really wanting to let on that he did occasionally worry for the liesmith. Occasionally, only when he had nothing better to do. He opened his mouth to say something else, but was met with an empty space where Thor had been before. “Is this something that this family does? Leave? In the middle of a conversation?” Sure, he was talking to himself, but at least no one was around to hear him.
Thor ran fast, he ran swiftly, heading straight to the stables only to stop midway there, a shock of green catching his eye down a smaller hallway, turning back to get a proper look as he watched his brother turn another corner. He knew where he was going now. An old room they used to frequent as children, filled with boxes and books removed from the library for repairs. It always used to be a quiet spot for them to hide until Heimdal told their father.
He wanted to run. Needed to run right in there and explain himself, but he didn’t want to scare Loki anymore then he already had today. So Thor, for once, truly gathered himself and walked, clenching and relaxing his hands at his side several times before he reached the room. There was a split second of hesitation before he pulled open the door and slipped inside, making sure to shut it behind him so that at least if Loki tried to run again, it would be a bit more difficult.
“You ran from me, Brother. You used magics on me and you ran.” Great way to start the conversation Thor, so slick. He shook his head faintly, moving over to the figure currently sat on a wooden box in the middle of the room, waiting for him to turn, for him to do anything before he reached out to touch.
“Had I tried to simply walk away you would have stopped me. I’d had my fill of supper and was hoping to get a little study in.” Lies, always, but he wasn’t exactly sure if he wanted his brother to know yet that he had stopped growing, that he’d stopped getting stronger. He didn’t really want Thor or anyone in the castle to know that he wasn’t going to be the same as the other prince.
They both had secrets, and neither of them would really want to say it without some serious provocation. “You could have just told me, Loki.” He says this a bit snappier then he intended to, the response in much the same tone, though Loki always seemed to get a bit of a growl in when he started to anger. “You would not have listened. You never do! You would laugh, smack me in the back, then drag me off to watch you and Fandral fight, or worse, to fight with one of you two.” The smaller princes shoulders pinched back as he said this, finally turning to look at the other man, forcing himself to his feet and standing as tall as he could. He was shorter then Thor now, and his shoulders were much thinner.
It seemed like they’d changed almost over night.
Loki swallowed hard, and Thor could see the light tremble in his lips, he wanted to shout back about how it was a warriors thing to do, to get stronger, but he pressed his lips together, both hands reaching out slowly to just touch his brother, right hand moving to caress his cheek as the other brushed a lock of hair behind his ear. “I love you more then anyone, Brother. You know I would never hurt you. Not on purpose.” As he said this the light tremble of Loki’s lips worsened, those thin brows pinching up and together.
Thor decided here and now that he hated it when Loki looked like this, that he was no longer going to let his little brother be this sad or frightened, let alone because of him. “You know this, Loki. I do not know my own strength.” Thor offered the smallest of smiles no, letting his thumb tun along the quivering upper lip, traveling along his angled cheek bones, stopping only when Loki’s own hands came up to take hold of his wrist.
Nothing needed to be said, he didn’t need to comment on how they would carry on, or how it would change. Thor knew now that he was getting to be too rough. Thor knew that he would need to watch his strength with the magic user.
Nothing needed to be said.
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Written by: Vote-H-Saxon